I’ve been bitten by the lazy bug! :(
I attempted to read my notes yesterday, from the start of the day till the end, I was reading the same lecture! Every time I start to read the lecture, I yawn.
Today I told my self that I have to do better than yesterday, and so I did. Yesterday I failed to finish reading even 1 lecture, today I improved by completing 2 lectures in a day. Which is probably not much but compared to yesterday, I progressed! :D
Tomorrow’s goal: Finish reading 6 lectures!
I was suppose to study this weekend, but I kind of ended up going around KL.
I went to Mid Valley on Friday and bought 3 PAIRS of shoes!! (they were having some sale). Also, I bought a new bag from Bonita (They were also having sales!!!!)
AND I went make up shopping, :D AND I went looking for pretty hair clips and while I was browsing through some of the clips, the salesgirl thought I was buying them cause I was getting married. =.=” (Do I look 30???)
And then on Saturday my cousin and her hubby and my dear little nephew came down from Ipoh so I spent the whole day hanging out with them and going all around KL with them.
TODAY, we went out, AGAIN. And mind you my nephew is 3y.o, which means there was a lot of screaming and running around.
So now, I am attempting to complete the workshop for tomorrow.
The weekend was gr8! :)
I have loads to ask, but I don’t know who to ask. I shall start asking the questions soon.
I NEED AN EXPLANATION.
There is no such thing as difficult in life. I prefer to use complicated and time consuming but still do-able.
I’ve done a non-randomised non-clinical trial in my head and found that when a person uses the word difficult in conveying any message to someone else, the receiver of that message immediately has this thought that if something doesn’t work out, it is OK, cause it is difficult. I feel that the use of the word “difficult” has a very negative psychological impact on people.
When I was in Form 4, I had to do Additional Mathematics and everyone was saying that it was extremely difficult and so on and so forth. So, even before I attempted the subject, I had already made up a conclusion in my head that if I do badly for this exam, it is OK, because it is difficult. Meaning that it is OK to not do well in it. But then, once I started to force my self to work on it and improve my Add maths skills, I found that it was kinda easy. And today, when I came across this pic, I could not have agreed more. :)
I got this pic from here.
The past couple of weeks, I’ve had my moments when I know I’ve screwed up and I start freaking out. Well, most of the time, I didn’t screw up big time, just some small little thing and I end up over analysing it and I end up freaking out. Sometimes, when we feel like we have lost all hope, or when we are afraid, people around can really do wonders. =)
A little reassurance can go a LONG way.
Thank you Soo Siew Bing, Ai Xin, Sharon, Huey Chin, Khai Mei and the others who listened to my ramblings, calmed my nerves/imagination and reassured me. You guys are good listeners! :) Thank You
I had an epiphany today. I was just reflecting about my week, and somewhere from there I realised that I have grown! And I’m not talking physically. =.=”
I’m talking about emotional and mental growth. And it happened so fast, I was like “o.m.g.” I was thinking about who I was back in college and suddenly, when I compared to who I am today, I realised that I’ve grown. I know this sounds weird, but the thing is, I’ve never really analysed myself in terms of emotional progress as well as mental progress. ( when I say mental progress, I’m referring to the way I think, not my intelligence)
And after realising that I have, in certain ways, changed dramatically compared to who I was in 2006, I went “Wow.” When you analyse your self, and study how much you’ve grown, you would actually realise how much wiser you’ve gotten!
I know this whole “me-realising-how-I've-grown” thing is weird, but it just pointed out another fact to me; I’m too caught up with my daily life that I never stopped to smell the roses, or in this case, reflect on myself.
And in the midst of seeing how much I’ve grown, I also came to realize, another thing : Nothing is permanent.
I realised that nothing in life is static, and most of the times, even when you are unaware, or when you think YOU are static, things are moving in a dynamic flow. You just don’t see them. This dynamic flow then affects you subconsciously and you are too caught up with you work, you don’t realise it, until one fine day when you decide to reflect on your self and you notice.
Look at me now, I’m a BPharm student. Will I permanently be one? No. Although I will always be a student, I won’t always be a BPharm student. As people, we will constantly be changing and evolving and adapting ourselves depending on our situation. No matter how much, or how hard I wish that certain things never change, I know it will. If I keep telling myself otherwise, then I’m just fooling myself.
The earlier you realise that you have to face reality, the more realistic you become, the more practical you become and the more sensible you become.
Bottom line: IT IS TIME I ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I’VE GROWN UP AND I’M NO LONGER A TEENAGER AND THEREFORE, I SHOULD STOP ACTING LIKE ONE.
~The End~
If you could have your own theme song, what would it be?
Mine would be ‘The Imperial March’, for those of you who have no idea how it sounds like, it sound like this:
Yes, I’m kind of obsessed with Star Wars, NOT the latest ones but the older ones, episode 4,5 and 6. Those were awesome!!!
