An ending to another chapter..

27/8/2012

The day I found out I got my FRP posting. At 3.40pm to be exact. Was told that I’ll be heading back to Selangor, Huey Chin will stay back in Kelantan, and Boy will go home to Sabah. Celebrated with frens. Ate some cake.

28/8/2012

My last day as a PRP at HRPZ II. Said my goodbyes. Took some pictures. Shed some tears. Celebrated Owi’s birthday. Ate some more cake.

29/8/2012

The day of packing. Met Akila. Had a good time chatting. Came home, continued to pack. Went for dinner with boy, one last time. Showed him the Kelantan river. Hung out at the clock tower till it was 8pm just to hear it ring. Sent him off to the airport. Made a scene at the departure counter. Came home, chatted with Huey Chin for 1++ hours. Pissed off with the house owner for turning off the internet.

30/8/2012

B’fast at Capitol. Ate their famous Nasi Dagang. Went to hospital to submit off forms. Said Goodbye to my dearest housemate. Shed some tears.. Picked up parents from the airport..took them for lunch. Sent them to the hotel. Packed up what was remaining. Found the surprise from Huey Chin!:D Officially moved out of the house.

31/8/2012

So here I am. Blogging once again from the hotel room. Getting ready to pay a visit to Pantai Irama later in the evening with my parents. I am a satisfied shopper today. Went to Pasar Siti Khadijah and bought the prettiest batiks I could find. You know what they say, they can’t make better batik than in Kelantan. OK fine. They don’t say that. I just made that up. Can’t believe today is my last day here. Will be heading back to KL tomorrow morning.( 8 hours of driving, God please bless my soul and pls give me patience) I think I will feed my self well before embarking from KB. I’m gonna miss this place. It will always have a special place in my heart. No matter how much I hated it here when I came here last year, the people I met here, the experience I got here, made me fall in love with this place. I’m scared to go to a new place. Everything will be new there. The people, the place, the work flow. I will need to adjust my self again.

I guess the main reason I’m feeling sad leaving this place is because of the family I found here. As Akila said, “Its not the place which you will miss, its the people you met here and the friends you are leaving behind.” I could not have said it any differently I guess. I have had the most AMAZING housemate. Being friends with a person is different. Living with them is another thing. I guess I have been blessed to have had good housemates/roommates when I was in Malacca and now here. Huey Chin, thank you for being the most understanding person here. Thank you for being there in my darkest moments, for teaching me how to “change facts” when the situation asks for it, and how to be a lesser diva! I could not have asked for a better housemate. I hope whomever the next person is, they won’t be as nice as me. No, its not that I want to curse you, I just don’t want to be replaced.. :( And if that BF of yours bullies you (which I don’t think he will), pls know that you can slap him.

To all the other amazing people who have been my close friend at HRPZ II, I greatly treasure the time and memories we had together. Hopefully, in the future, I would get to work with you guys and hang out with u guys again.

Its that time of my life, where I start a new chapter again. Last year, I went from undergrad to PRP. Now, I’m going from PRP to FRP. Hope everything goes well.

See you in SELANGOR!!! :)

Uncertainty

Here we are again. Full circle, after 1 year. Waiting for the news. Wondering where we will be ordered to serve. And how that is going to affect our lives.

I’m afraid.

Am I ready to deal with what is out there?

Am I ready to leave this place which I have been wanting to leave for a very long time?

Deep down in the pit of my stomach, I have this feeling. The feeling that I’m not gonna be prepared to deal with leaving this place. I have become so accustomed to my life here, the people here, that I know if I have to leave this place, I would be heart-broken to a certain extent. No matter how much I try to prepare my self for the worst case scenario, I know that when it comes, I won’t be prepared at all. Reality really hit me hard today. These may or may not be the last couple of days I have left here with my friends. How am I going to spend it? I have had so much of good, and bad memories here, with all the good people I have come to know, I really am wondering how am I going to say goodbye to all of them.

I’m getting rather annoyed with the same question from different people. “Dah dapat posting?”  And also let us not forget the other lovely question, “Kalau dapat Sabah, U ok ke?” Seriously, I don’t get why people are so concerned with my postings. Most of them who asked me are merely busy bodies who have nothing else better to do.

I have tried to mentally prepare myself. But only God knows if I am ready to deal with what’s in store for me.

A dear good friend told me this, “God won’t send you somewhere you can’t survive”. Knowing that, I believe that wherever I’ll get posted to, I will accept it and just go with it.