Most of the times I wish that I never came back.
I miss the times where people around you are sincere, honest and NICE.
If I could go back in time, I would have told myself to stay on and not come back.
I’m so used to niceness that I feel suffocated by the politics and drama.
I take back whatever negative thing I have said about KB. And I wouldn’t mind another 4 years there. At least I would be happy.
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What does it feel like to be a FRP?
It feels heavy for me. I’m still fresh out of being a PRP. I got sent to a computerised hospital but I was trained in a manual hospital therefore I’m having some trouble transitioning, but all will be well in time, I believe as this is just a phase.
Everything seems new and different here. If I were a pegawai at my old place, I think I would have the confidence to manage what I’m suppose to manage, but here, where everything seems so alien to what I have come to known, I must say, I don’t have the confidence. But it will all come in time, I’m really hoping on that.
With this new phase I’m going through, I’m really glad to have the support and encouragement from my friends, both from KL and KB. I suddenly feel blessed to have many people cheering me on, and giving me support. And I thank God for that.
To my buddy, Huey Chin, hang on in there!!! I believe I will be calling u for advice on how to handle TDM cases soon! :) and p/s, I miss our morning chats over breakfast. :(
27/8/2012
The day I found out I got my FRP posting. At 3.40pm to be exact. Was told that I’ll be heading back to Selangor, Huey Chin will stay back in Kelantan, and Boy will go home to Sabah. Celebrated with frens. Ate some cake.
28/8/2012
My last day as a PRP at HRPZ II. Said my goodbyes. Took some pictures. Shed some tears. Celebrated Owi’s birthday. Ate some more cake.
29/8/2012
The day of packing. Met Akila. Had a good time chatting. Came home, continued to pack. Went for dinner with boy, one last time. Showed him the Kelantan river. Hung out at the clock tower till it was 8pm just to hear it ring. Sent him off to the airport. Made a scene at the departure counter. Came home, chatted with Huey Chin for 1++ hours. Pissed off with the house owner for turning off the internet.
30/8/2012
B’fast at Capitol. Ate their famous Nasi Dagang. Went to hospital to submit off forms. Said Goodbye to my dearest housemate. Shed some tears.. Picked up parents from the airport..took them for lunch. Sent them to the hotel. Packed up what was remaining. Found the surprise from Huey Chin!:D Officially moved out of the house.
31/8/2012
So here I am. Blogging once again from the hotel room. Getting ready to pay a visit to Pantai Irama later in the evening with my parents. I am a satisfied shopper today. Went to Pasar Siti Khadijah and bought the prettiest batiks I could find. You know what they say, they can’t make better batik than in Kelantan. OK fine. They don’t say that. I just made that up. Can’t believe today is my last day here. Will be heading back to KL tomorrow morning.( 8 hours of driving, God please bless my soul and pls give me patience) I think I will feed my self well before embarking from KB. I’m gonna miss this place. It will always have a special place in my heart. No matter how much I hated it here when I came here last year, the people I met here, the experience I got here, made me fall in love with this place. I’m scared to go to a new place. Everything will be new there. The people, the place, the work flow. I will need to adjust my self again.
I guess the main reason I’m feeling sad leaving this place is because of the family I found here. As Akila said, “Its not the place which you will miss, its the people you met here and the friends you are leaving behind.” I could not have said it any differently I guess. I have had the most AMAZING housemate. Being friends with a person is different. Living with them is another thing. I guess I have been blessed to have had good housemates/roommates when I was in Malacca and now here. Huey Chin, thank you for being the most understanding person here. Thank you for being there in my darkest moments, for teaching me how to “change facts” when the situation asks for it, and how to be a lesser diva! I could not have asked for a better housemate. I hope whomever the next person is, they won’t be as nice as me. No, its not that I want to curse you, I just don’t want to be replaced.. :( And if that BF of yours bullies you (which I don’t think he will), pls know that you can slap him.
To all the other amazing people who have been my close friend at HRPZ II, I greatly treasure the time and memories we had together. Hopefully, in the future, I would get to work with you guys and hang out with u guys again.
Its that time of my life, where I start a new chapter again. Last year, I went from undergrad to PRP. Now, I’m going from PRP to FRP. Hope everything goes well.
See you in SELANGOR!!! :)
Here we are again. Full circle, after 1 year. Waiting for the news. Wondering where we will be ordered to serve. And how that is going to affect our lives.
I’m afraid.
Am I ready to deal with what is out there?
Am I ready to leave this place which I have been wanting to leave for a very long time?
Deep down in the pit of my stomach, I have this feeling. The feeling that I’m not gonna be prepared to deal with leaving this place. I have become so accustomed to my life here, the people here, that I know if I have to leave this place, I would be heart-broken to a certain extent. No matter how much I try to prepare my self for the worst case scenario, I know that when it comes, I won’t be prepared at all. Reality really hit me hard today. These may or may not be the last couple of days I have left here with my friends. How am I going to spend it? I have had so much of good, and bad memories here, with all the good people I have come to know, I really am wondering how am I going to say goodbye to all of them.
I’m getting rather annoyed with the same question from different people. “Dah dapat posting?” And also let us not forget the other lovely question, “Kalau dapat Sabah, U ok ke?” Seriously, I don’t get why people are so concerned with my postings. Most of them who asked me are merely busy bodies who have nothing else better to do.
I have tried to mentally prepare myself. But only God knows if I am ready to deal with what’s in store for me.
A dear good friend told me this, “God won’t send you somewhere you can’t survive”. Knowing that, I believe that wherever I’ll get posted to, I will accept it and just go with it.
Funny how I have not updated my blog ever since I completed my logbooks. I guess it figures that my blogging mood is related to my stress level. So now that I’m writing something, it ought to mean that I’m stressed up with something. And that something would be my research! The final presentation at bahagian is this coming Monday and I’m suppose to be doing a GROUP WORK, but I feel that I’m doing the GROUP work ALONE. Not that I want to be judgemental or anything, but I can’t help but to notice that most graduates from a certain Uni seem to be very VERY problematic. I’m not sure whether it has anything to do with where they got their education or maybe its just their attitude, but most certainly, I DO NOT LIKE WORKING WITH THEM BECAUSE THEY ARE THE LAZIEST PEOPLE ON EARTH!
With 5 weeks of PRP life to go, I can’t help but to wonder where the next chapter will take me. In a way, I’m hoping that I will get a place which I did not list for in my placement form, and I don’t want to be retained here. I want to go for another adventure. Isn’t life boring if you stay at the same place for a long time? I guess deep down I have a heart of a nomad. Maybe I’ll get posted to Perak or Johor or Sabah or Langkawi! Who knows?? I’ll wait and see..but at the mean time, maybe I should start packing. Worse case scenario would be me having to unpack right? =)
So my logbooks are completed. Minus the DIS logbook cause that's like my LAST station. Just completed my TPN (thank GOD for that!). M ready to be thrown back to hell (a.k.a OPD). But putting work aside, I’m really REALLY excited over my holiday plans!! =) Someone is GOING TO SYDNEY!! (although the initial plan was to go to Melbourne, it somehow changed to Sydney)
And also I’ll be heading to Cameron soon with the KB gang. So many plans and so little time to accomplish them all! I will be going back to KL nx week!
Also, since I’m PLANNING on leaving this place soon, I’ve decided to embark on a food trip ard KB and I’ll update ,my bloggie with the wonderful food of Kelantan. Like today, I had amazing mouth-watering Ikan Bakar at this hidden place. I mean, it’s yummy! like really yummy! but too bad my camera wasn’t with me. But nevermind, I shall be bringing my trusty camera along next time! =)
ok.. battle of the log books is over!! =)
Just finished my TPN viva just now.. so, everything is more or less settled! Just left with the following:
1. Fill up wang pos and settle the mini stuff
2. Wait for KPF to sign borang penempatan and appraisal form
3. WAIT FOR POSTING!
YUP! can’t believe that I actually completed my logbooks!!!! it feels kinda weird but good.. as if a burden has been lifted..and what a time to head back to KL.. with no worries! =)
Its finally coming to an end.. wee~~~
